The Silent Battle.

“Know thyself, know thy enemy…”

Every person has had a battle or is currently fighting one at this moment. It may be why you’re here. And when I say battle, it’s nothing like throwing physical punches and slitting actual throats. No. I mean mental battles where you promised to write 2 pages a day for the next one month or you decided to publish substack posts at least twice a week and you’ve failed to that and now, your mind is judging and calling you out on how big a fraudster you are and you begin to feel very bad that you make a firm resolution to keep to your promises and then you fail again and the cycle goes on ( stops to catch a breath ). Those battles, are the toughest. And if you’re unarmed and without caution, you just might end up with a slit throat.

I’ve had to fight many of these battles since this year as I fell out on my reading schedule, proposed workout plan, writing and as a matter of fact, my whole life. It felt like I was floating in the air and just watching myself make all the bad decisions and do nothing and be nothing - just a full time, hard, over-thinker.

Sometimes, I’d blame it on the fact that I just graduated college and maybe this phase of confusion is natural and will fade with time but I graduated since January and I know it’s just some silly excuse to make the pity party, a bearable one.

Now I’ve been talking with friends and engaging in soliloquy and if there’s only one thing I’ve learned in this struggling period, it’s that you shouldn’t wait until the grass is greener before going out; water it in summer, sit out in autumn and even send whispers in winter. You cannnot just leave it there, alone, unattended to, and expect it healthy in spring. It just might not be there at all.

This goes for your writing, budding music career, that youtube channel you’ve been thinking of starting or whatever you’re struggling with at the moment- there is no right time! just start; small, wrong, unsure, scared, doesn’t matter. The important thing is that you’re starting.

“It’s the doing it, that matters. Making time for it that matters. Being vulnerable enough to do it is what matters. You find your own way. You find your own style. You get your own benefits. But only if you do it.” - an excerpt from one of my favorite newsletters I subscribed to, at the beginning of the year; DailyStoic.

And so whatever mind battle you’re fighting now, this is your cue, to end that battle -your opponent, uncertainty? fear? there goes it’s head.

Victory? Yours

I’ll be here to hear your story. ❤️